What No One Tells You About

Over the last month or so, I’ve lost my best friend due to lies. I’ve never really talked to anyone about it either, but maybe I should have. Maybe all my feelings wouldn’t be bunched up inside me waiting to spew out at any given moment. I can’t help but think about all the good times we had with each other, now all I do when I think about it is cry. I try to think of the positive for being without him. But there’s nothing good about not having him here. I feel like I can’t tell anyone anything anymore because I just don’t trust them. 

Sometimes, I wish I never even went to turnabout just so I didn’t lose her. But, it was a chance I was willing to take. And now, I have a friend who is there for me 100% of the time and I know he will never hurt me. He hasn’t hurt me in 11 years; I think it’s safe to say that he will be here for me until the end. I don’t think I’ll ever be able to trust someone like I did before but I’m going to try my hardest. Sometimes bad things happen so better things can fall into place. Sure, I’ll be pretty upset for a while, but that’s what’s expected when you lose someone you’ve been best friends with since you were 10. Even thinking about the whole situation makes me want to cry, but I need to stay strong through it all. There is nothing I can do to change the past even if I really wanted to.

When I regret something I did, I just remember not to make the same mistake the next time and try my hardest to make everything better. Through this entire process I’ve found out that I have some acquaintances that were never really my friends, but then again, I found out that I have some really great friends that I can count on forever. Even if it isn’t who I thought it would be, at least you have someone. You will always have someone who is your friend no matter what you have done to screw things up with other people. I’ve learned to keep your friends close because they’re one of the most important things you can have.

Reasons to Smile

Life is one huge emotional mind game. There are days we wake up with an empty heart wondering if we’re even going to make it. We get beaten to the ground over and over again, we get our hope torn from us, we scream at the top of our lungs to the sky hoping that the moon will fill the void that still remains.. But somehow through all the pain, through all the suffering.. These moments never compare to the seconds that take our breath away. The situations given to us that remind us of how beautiful life can be. Let go.. Detach yourself.. There’s too much beauty to quit. I live for moments like these… WE live for moments like this.

We All Make Mistakes

I believe that we all make mistakes and end up learning from them. Everybody makes mistakes in this world, whether it’s a professional athlete or the President, it’s just a fact of life. Not one person is perfect so therefore, along the line everyone is going to make a bad decision or do something they really didn’t think they should have. But the biggest thing about making mistakes, is learning from them, to not do the same thing again, and just gaining knowledge about something. If everybody just went and made mistake after mistake, it wouldn’t seem right would it? I have heard this phrase “we learn from our mistakes” probably the most from my parents. Learning from a mistake could be something way more major in life like a teenager trying drugs or alcohol. The teenager sees all their friends and other peers drinking or doing drugs at some party, and think, it’s what everyone else is doing here so I might as well do it too. So after they end up getting drunk or high and decide to get into a vehicle and drive home, that’s when their mistake has already began. They could end up getting into an accident because they are under the influence, or just get in trouble with the law. That’s why I believe you learn from your mistakes, because if this would happen to just about any teenager, they probably wouldn’t make the same mistake again, by drinking and driving under the influence, especially if they got in an accident and put their lives or someone else’s life in jeopardy just for a few drinks. I believe that if we didn’t learn from our mistakes, there would be so many things wrong in the world, and nothing would have developed or ever got discovered or invented, because I know for a fact whoever invented the computer and other people who updated them didn’t get it all right the first try, and had to make mistakes to learn and grow from them to help them succeed.

Looking Back

Sometimes pain is so unmanageable that the idea of spending another day with it seems impossible. Other times pain acts as a compass to help you through the messier tunnels of growing up. But pain can only help you find happiness if you remember it.